Oh hey, first result on the second page of my name's Google results! I guess that makes this not the best place to complain out my summer employment or classmate annoyances? Got it!
I can safely talk about how New York is heating up in only the way a place covered in concrete and steel will. Where you're stuck underground waiting for a train to come and find your misery multiplied when you have that one slow bead of sweat making its way down your back. That's the bad side. The good side is being able to walk around without 20 layers and hang around outside later and later. I had a fun trip to the Water Taxi Beach last Friday night and hanging out there listening to music with my friends was the best thing I did all weekend.
I'm finding myself slightly regretful that I'm missing all the fun stuff that goes on in the hot months, but then I think about when it's August with a heat index of 105 and I can only keep vampire hours, I think I can live without it.
Just found out today that Alex and the band are playing a cool sounding fest in Portugal, the weekend after I touch down in Europe. Hello, first side excursion!
This time last week, I was embracing the end of the school year by blowing off the work hunt for a few days. And of course, they had to rang my phone off the hook once I took advantage of a crazy $20 Jet Blue sale and took off for San Francisco. This visit was way more touristy overall, but I loved the revisit to the bizarro bar of my Brooklyn Cheers. And B, always awesome, and hopefully coming to my coast soon, so I can show him my personal wonderful crazed NYC.
After my second visit, I'm a little in love with the city. I don't quite understand the million different transportation options, but I could really see myself there. PrincessNella and I wandered the streets, scoping out imaginary apartments and pretending that I was there permanently. Maybe I will make the move next year. It's definitely a strong possibility.
Back in NYC, I've landed a freelance job that will last me to weeks before the Europe adventure. I'm stoked on life and everything right now, just trying to keep my life in order. July is coming up so far and I'm really trying to balance lining up all the ducks in row with the fun warm weather brings here.
I've been a little distracted though playing the what if game and that kicked up all sorts of feelings I've struggled with over the years with the blog. It's a strange and weird thing to have a worldwide accessible diary of young adulthood. I can pull up posts that talked about my first loves, my first adult job, my first apartment, and all the heartache that came with that. I have made a conscious effort over the years to detangle myself (and all my emotions) from here, but there's something so powerful just the same knowing that someone who has read from 2003 can read between the lines seven years later and know the real me I usually think I'm hiding so well.
There;s no denying that swiftly approaching 30, my life has taken weird turns that I'd have never imagined in 2003 as a bright-eyed 22-year old who thought I knew everything. But that's just how life goes really. At this point, I want a brilliant summer and go back to school in the fall with a great thesis idea. I want to fulfill a longtime dream and explore Europe with no lingering regrets/nagging thoughts. I want fun, I want romance, I want satisfaction. I want everything and I feel like I'm in a place where I finally know how to get it.
This year was a bit of a hard trek. The fall definitely more so than the spring for sure. I feel like I hit my stride a bit this semester, I'm definitely feeling good right now though.
The rest of the week is my moment of respite before I go back to freelancing furiously for the weeks I've got before Paris. There was a scary moment last week at the program orientation where I wasn't sure if it was still a go, but they say it is apparently, so I'm hoping for the best.
I'm trying to get rid of loose ends this week so I can just be as lazy as possible this weekend. I know well the hazards of having no break before jumping into another stressful situation.
