I sorta stepped into a bit of a trap over on ILE and it's only reminding me of what I already know about myself.
I might be cool and other good adjectives, but I'm not especially nice. I'm selfish, cynical, shallow, and self-centered. And flighty. And I don't particularly care if other people know it. Like I said, not nice.
There's a huge part of me that's like: yeah and so what? I've never really seen the point in pretending to be a Polyanna. At least I'm self-contained and don't go around flinging my shit around and screwing up others. For the most part. Sometimes I end up being a little too honest. I hurt people's feelings occasionally -- and you know, they hurt mine too. I've got enemies and it's just one of those things. I'm well aware of many of my flaws. No one's perfect. And I'm not an active fuckup or anything.
Besides, I'm sure I'll just end up laughing about what a silly I was now in 5 years or so. It always goes like that. And I've come up with another t-shirt idea: "I'm Not A Whore...I Just Play One On The Internet." Maybe I'll wear it and post a pic and they can deface it or something.
Posted by Candicissima at July 21, 2005 10:38 PM