I feel myself standing on the verge.
Now that's one of those feelings I've had for about six months or so, but right now seems...different. I've been calling myself a professional interviewer lately because I've been suiting up, gathering cards, and selling the goods I'm offering nonstop. I've learned what works, what doesn't, how to effectively big myself, what to mention, the right responses to questions. I'm miles away from where I was when I started doing this because I thought I should just because. I've got a goal and I have to do what I can to achieve it. It's like going into battle and planning the offensive. My fellow comrades and I are trading tactics and helping each other prepare. We're really not fucking around.
Kicking myself into gear has killed some of the stagnation I've felt -- as well as my blogging time. I've been downright single minded lately. I don't even relax like I used to. All I can think right now is that I want something to celebrate at my party besides just another year into adulthood. I want there to be big changes in my life and I can visualize them so clearly that I'm almost living it. Initiative is the name of the game right now.
Posted by Candicissima at February 26, 2004 03:17 PM