I was hanging out with PrincessNella telling her about Ms. Mommy's comment from the other day. She laughed and laughed and we discussed how mothers have that strange ability to be off the hook now and again. But, her second reaction was all "wow, how'd she know that?" as in "geez...even she figured out what all of us seem to know."
All of my friends think I only date white guys...not that there's anything wrong with that. (Was that a Seinfeldian moment or what?) They all say it, they tease me, they refuse to believe that I've thrown more than a momentarily bone of attention to a non-white guy. Even Mr. Sailor, in the height of obnoxiousness when I told him that's what people think and some of my history, said I probably liked him at first because I thought he was white. Which is the biggest crock of shit and I told him so with a steady stream of curses and "how dare you"s at the time. Even my extended family thinks it...minus my uncle who as recently as May was asking me about my "Mexican" boyfriend.
I used to be defensive about it, but fuck, life's too short. I don't have to justify myself to anyone. I can date or "date" anyone I want. I personally enjoy the words of the late Big Pun: "I don't discriminate, I regulate any shade of that ass." The truth of the matter is all across the board a lot of guys say stupid shit and get deaded with the quickness. And it's also true that there are a fair number of guys out there of all shades that won't have a flicker of interest in me because I'm not only black, but dark too. As well as those who chase me like some sort of exotic creature because of a black girl fetish. I've gotten my feelings hurt as being pegged as "the wrong type" and "an experiment." Some people are just fucked up like that. I don't think I'm good-natured/misguided/crazy enough to say "everybody should like who they like, the world is destined to be brown anyways when everyone's all mixed" hippy dippy shit, but I can say without a doubt that I'm just getting started, so the static so far is unnecessary. Then again, is there anything wrong with exes looking like that Rainbow Coalition or something?
Posted by Candicissima at November 25, 2003 06:20 AMwhite guys smell like wet dog.
Posted by: eben at November 25, 2003 04:11 PM